I won't "bash" you, I promise!
I have a good friend that was a gay JW. Because of some unique circumstances he DA'd himself. He is a much happier person now.
Do you really think you can live as a JW? They teach that being gay is not a physiological state, but instead is a choice. I'm going to guess that you know better than to take such a position.
As yknot said, loosing your tradition can be very difficult, and I understand the reasons for why you would want to keep it. But being gay brings you into conflict with the Watchtowers view on sexuality. The two are very opposed. You may find it helpful to learn why others have walked away from the JWs for reasons other that sexual preference.
- correction, just saw your other comment
If you do not actually believe the Watchtower to be true, then the psychological pressure to "do gods will" certainly will be gone. "Faking" a reinstatment is difficult, and can bring about lots of pressures you may not want to endure. Its a difficult choice, but realize that going back to the organization means being around friends and family that do not understand you.
The question is, how much are you really willing to put up with in order to have those relationships?